8 Things

I hate you more than you"ll ever know,
Words can only express,
The pain you cause, the heart you break,
And everything I regret.

I hate that I let you in when I should not have,
I've opened up my heart.
All I feel is you pushing me away,
You always make me doubt.

I hate the way you look at me,
Your smile is amazing.
It makes my knees get weak,
And my heart slowly starts to melt.

I hate how I cannot trust you,
It tears me up inside.
The frustration I feel from it,
Makes me want to run and hide.

I hate the way you make me laugh,
Even when I am down.
Or even listening to your stupid laugh,
It turns everything around.

I hate how I feel you don't appreciate,
All the things I do.
When all I'm looking for in return,
Is for our relationship to be true.

I hate the way you lie to me,
When I really know the truth.
And how I'm able to look past it,
Because of my feelings for you.

But most of all I hate myself,
For not walking away.
For continuing to want to be with you,
More and more each day.