The Look

From the start, it was the look. The amazing smile that beamed off of his face. It was as if that smile was only for me and no one could come between. He could be across the room and our eyes would meet, then the smile would light everything up. Slowly the smile started to fade. I saw it less and less. It broke my heart to see it go. I knew something was wrong and sure enough, there was. I always had my doubts I knew it was too good to be true. I would think everyday of all the reasons we should not be together, everything that was standing in our way. But I fought it, til I could not fight anymore. The smile was gone and it was over. It was as if we were strangers that had never smiled at one another before. I had never felt so much pain. To lose something that made me so happy, to realize that I did have something but never let it be. To not see that smile smiling at me but at everyone else around. I thought my world was going to end. How crazy I felt, how crazy I was. All I wanted to do is scream, I wanted that smile back more than anything in the world. Slowly it came back to me, or so I thought. To find out later that it was not just for me, but for someone else to. I thought the pain could not get worse, when it actually made me sick. Now the smile is mine again, but I'm still having doubts. Why don't I just walk away? It's the look the smile that keeps me hanging on. To this day it can still make me smile even when its the last thing I want to do.